About

Welcome to ‘Mentally Questionable’, a blog to record some experiences, thoughts and ideas as I do battle with mental illness.

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Bio: I’m a recent graduate in the UK in my early twenties, struggling with depression and anxiety since early 2012.

Current diagnosis: Depression with suicide ideation and DSH and Anxiety

Past diagnoses: Psychotic depression, Dysthymia, bipolar

Current medicationsFluoxetine (Prozac) 60mg daily, Lithium 700mg nightly, Mirtazapine (Remeron) 45mg nightly, Propranolol (Inderal) 160mg SR daily

Past medications: Amitriptyline (Elavil), Olanzapine (Zyprexa). Quetiapine (Seroquel). Risperidone (Risperdal), Zopiclone (Imovane/Zimovane), Venlafaxine (Effexor) 75/150/225/300mg daily, Sertraline (Zoloft/Lustral) 50/100/150/200mg, Trazodone (Desyrel) 50/100/150/200mg, Propranolol 10mg/80mg slow-release

I’ve received a short course of ketamine-treatment from my local psychiatric hospital.

I’ve also been in therapy for several years now

In this blog I’m going to be completely open and honest. This means discussing things like self-harm and suicide, so I’d like to issue a little ‘trigger alert’. I know some of my posts make for some hard reading, but this is my reality.

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If you want to know why I have these problems, join the queue. My past doesn’t contain any family tragedies or personal traumas, and it’s for this reason that it took me at least six months to admit my mental illness existed – I believed that mental illness had to have these kinds of triggers.

My therapist describes my case as the weathering of a rock; there are cracks in the structure, and over time this rock has been worn down until the cracks are exposed. The cracks are the result of growing up in a dysfunctional family – alcohol addictions, a toxic marriage etc, a family-wide inability to apologize or ever talk about feelings and emotions – the list goes on, and the upshot is that my childhood development was a little twisted off course at times. I’ve always been proud of coping, but those coping/defence mechanisms are haunting me now.

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If you have any questions about any of the above, questions relating to blog posts, or if you just fancy saying hello, please don’t hesitate to get in touch! My email is mentallyquestionable@gmail.com

8 thoughts on “About

  1. Hey MQ (full name was too long to type…or it could be i’m just a really slow typist..) :),

    Thanks for Following my Blog. If there is anything in particular you’d like me to right about that is Health or Fitness related, let me know.
    Your Blog is confronting to say the least, but I made myself read each Post. Without focusing on the obvious (i.e. Depression), your writing is really honest and raw, and in a strange way, not beautiful due to the content, but very near it…i’m not sure I have the vocabulary for the words I mean.
    Anyway, what I’m trying to say is, keep writing! You have an obvious talent for it, and if it helps you in any way, then the writing can only be a good thing.

    Take Care,
    Rich
    Core Health Dynamics

    • Thanks Rich, that’s really kind of you to say! And I’ll certainly let you know if I think of anything health/fitness related I’d like to know more about 🙂

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